Yay! For the first time in what must be many years, I measured my sugar this morning and it was a "normal" value - 5.5 mmol/l. It's a cause for limited celebration, as obviously the number is good, but I still need to take insulin to get to that level. But whilst I've always had the attitude "it runs a little bit high, but let's make sure it's not too high", this is the first time for many years that somebody could look at my finger-prick result, and not immediately realise that I'm diabetic. So whilst I've automatically conceded, I suppose, that I can't have "normal" sugar levels, actually, I can!
I mean, I measure my sugar every day so I know how much it can fluctuate. So I am just applying logic to it and saying that, in the grand scheme of things, this is just an abnormally low reading in the same vein as the abnormally high reading I got last Saturday (say), so the important thing to watch is my average, not a one-off value.
Of course, it also increases the possibility of hypos, just in terms of my sugar going too low. I've tended to avoid them mostly because I do let my sugar run slightly high, but if I'm down in the realms of the 5s and 6s, there is absolutely no reason why it can't go just little bit further, and go dangerously low. I need to watch out for that, although I do know what a hypo feels like so I should be able to notice if one comes on.
It does make me think, though. Just in terms of the sugar, the stroke, etc. I face this monumental battle each day, counting pretty much every scrap of food that I eat, whereas other people can just get away with eating whatever rubbish takes their fancy. You can't go through life moping "why me?" but you can't help wondering sometimes at what might have been.
I've tried to guard against hypos by immediately reducing my insulin dose, only by 5%. Let's see what my sugar is doing when I'm next fasting. Even if it does go high again, that small amount of difference in insulin must mean that it can't go too high.
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