I wanted to say something about how strokes can affect people mentally (or do they?) My thoughts about this are a little incoherent, so I hope as I type that they make sense.
I remember when I first came out of hospital, I felt somewhat divorced from reality, as if I were in some kind of perpetual dream. Nothing felt "real". I put this down to two possible causes: (i) the stroke itself, or (ii) the fact that the stroke landed me in the artificial environment of a hospital, where you're so looked after, for five weeks. I did have half such a discussion about this, with a guy who once spent a long period in hospital, he didn't experience this, so I'm guessing the former.
It doesn't surprise me in many ways. I used to be a keen photographer, and I would often put some kind of filter on the lens, to change subsequent photographs. Stroke is exactly like that. You need to add a "filter" into the loop, just to ensure that you process things as you did before. I've discussed this with another survivor, so I feel on quite solid ground here.
One of the ways in which this is noticeable is that the stroke has made me very "me"-centric. How will something affect me, for example? You have to remind yourself to consider other people. I still feel this, to this day. And it makes me particularly considerate of stroke partners, who get zero attention or support, but who have to live with the survivor.
My assumption is that this too is caused by stroke - which is,after all, a brain injury - although I am able to see this "me-centricness" in non-stroke people easily enough. In fact, the thing which prompted me to write this post was ostensibly a programme about how nursing has changed over time (which seems a worthy topic), but which instead seemed to be the presenter's vanity project. This woman's mother had been a nurse, so the programme had a very personal slant to it. Inoffensive enough, but not particularly interesting for me. And a bit weird that this person is impersonating a nurse (presumably for all of ten minutes!), yet seemed to hog the limelight so much. I'm not sure I'd have a lot of time for her.
On a separate note, I have been given access to some kind of training site by the Stroke Association. Thus far, nothing further has been said to me, but I couldn't help but notice that some of the courses were marked as "mandatory". Further, these courses seem to be aimed at a particular browser, Google Chrome, which I found quite buggy (so I use Firefox instead). So I'll just ignore this site for now. If someone subsequently says "we'd like you to do this online course" then I suppose I'll need to think about whether I want to install software and change browsing habits. It does seem strange that something is marked as "mandatory", but is aimed only at a subset of all browsers. But for now, I merely make the observation.
Lastly, we have some relatives visiting next week, and the house is tidy (although full!). There's a limit to how much I can do these days before I have to retire knackered, but I've been working steadily over the last five or six weeks, and had a lot of help from my wife, so it is just a case now of keeping on top of things like cat poo (remember, one of them is quite messy) smothered anywhere. Our daughter has also asked to come and stay, which could spell "mess". But, as I smell furniture polish everywhere, I am sitting with my fingers crossed.
BEFORE YOU START: Please note that although I currently volunteer for both the Stroke Association and Age UK, the views expressed in this blog are strictly my own. I am not a spokesperson for either (or, indeed, for any) organisation, and I accept complete responsibility for the views expressed herein. I've tried to use the Glossary to explain any ambiguous terms, but if you think there is anything I've missed, please message me.